Friends.... Who are they actually??

Well... Just to clarify... This post is not about my friends(except a few that calls me friends but... )Lol...

Well... in my world... a friend... is actually quite simple to be defined... he/she is just a person that you would help whenever you can... and will also help you whenever he/she can...no asking or pleading or begging or whatever needed... just a glance and he/she'll know what to do...*ma english sucks!!!*

But... Nowadays...in the so called "real world" or "reality"... friends are just simply people who you can talk along with... can just crap about anything... and make you feel that you don't have any responsibilities at the moment(only)... what my parents call "can hee-hee-haa-haa" with... but when the time comes that you need their help desperately(of course it's something serious, or else i won't use the word desperately... XD) ... they'll just walk away from you... and o yea... i forgot to add... whenever they need your help... they'll treat you very very very very very well(speak nicely to you.. give you some treats... give you whatever you want... "polish your shoes" until you can even look at your face with it... etc. etc.) ... and after helping them... without a "thanks"... they'll just walk away as if you never helped them at all... wow... i'm starting to regret helping these people again and again and again and again and again... well... you get what i mean... and also... after helping you... they'll just describe the tiny little favour they did for you into something like:"well... i've saved your life from being killed by (whatever you're most afraid of... fill in the blank... XD)" wow... are they just great in claiming for gratitudes and helps or what... Summary: they're just the people who wants you to help them without expecting any rewards... but only helping you if there's some 利害关系／利益关系...

well... luckily... for most of these people around me... i don't really get that close to them... our relationship is either "working partners" or what i like to call "hi-bye-friend"... which... i don't have to be so helpful with them and i don't need to ask for their help either... XD we'll just say a hi and bye whenever we meet... that's all... XD

what's happening in this society?? what's causing these people to behave like this??!! still in search for the answer... can anyone give me the answer or at least guide me to the answer?? getting very frustrated seeing these people around me... can i at least make them change that little bit?? to at least care for the people around them with their heart but not their minds which are always thinking about what will they get in the end?? don't think so... i can just hope that the situation get a bit better... that's all... damn pissed off!!! frustrated!!! tired!!! sick!!! damn!!!



From: Shawn
Zuo Hao

11.05pm 21/11/2008 friday

Walking into others' life... and leaving it... without leaving anything behind... none at all...

There's a rule in Forest reserves... "take nothing but photographs... and leave nothing but footsteps..."

Am i not even comparable to a forest?? yea... maybe i am... i'm seriously very surprised that i can get to know someone... and i thought i knew the persons quite well... and suddenly... i found out that i'm just a nothing in everyone's life and memories... it's just like i don't even exist in their worlds... is it my own problem?? or is it their fault?? guess it's my own problem... maybe i'm just too annoying and irritating to be remembered... this world is seriously a very dangerous place... or maybe it's just because i'm too lazy and lousy to face everything?? looks like everything's my oen problem... guess i can't just blame others... it's all my fault.. *siiiiiiiiiiighsssssssssssss*

looks like i'll have to get used to walking into others' memories without leaving a trace inside... although i failed to do so since i was born................ it's a hard thing to do.......... hope i'll succeed...



林宥嘉 - 再别康桥

轻轻的我走了
正如我轻轻的来
我轻轻地招手
作别西天的云彩

那河畔的金柳
是夕阳中的新娘
波光里的艳影
在我心头荡漾

寻梦撑一支一支长篙
向青草更青处漫溯
满载一船一船星辉
在星辉斑斓里放歌

软泥上的青荇
油油的在水底招摇
在康河的柔波里
我甘心做一条水草

那榆阴下的一潭
不是清泉是天上虹
揉碎在浮藻间
沉淀着彩虹似的梦

但我不能不能放歌
悄悄是别离的笙箫
夏虫也为我为我沉默
沉默是今晚的康桥

悄悄的我走了走了
正如我悄悄的来
我挥一挥衣袖衣袖
不带走一片云彩



突然爱上了这首歌。。。它是在说我心情吗？？不是啊。。。它是安宁吗？？ 适合在睡觉的时候听吗？？ 可是在这个时候的我。。。觉得它很灰。。。很蓝。。。一听就渗入我的心。。。完全不需问过我的允许。。。唉。。。我不是轻轻地走。。。而是无声息地走了。。。我没挥衣袖。。。留不下东西。。。却带走了很多回忆。。。自私的我。。。有可能能够适应这种生活吗？？不知道。。。但愿答案能够在终有一天被我找到吧。。。

HK Dramas...

Hey guyz... just want to introduce this website to you... this is where i download my astro on demand dramas... XD if i'm not mistaken... about 99% of the dramas are there... accompanied by drama synopsis and also other details... XD feel free to go visit the website... the link is on my blog list... mushiemoshiu... XD Just go to the "My Favourite Drama" site after going to the link... XD Enjoy...

Tagged by Mrs. Jung... T_T""

Name 20 people randomly. At the end of the survey, choose 5 people to do the survey. Don't read the questions but name the 20 people first...
01.Sai Lou Happylouis
02.Korx TC
03.Chee Tat
04.GrandNephew Chee Ching
05.Kar Yee
06.Seow May
07.Ching Sin
08.YH
09.Korx SY
10.Cai Yi
11.Miss Q
12.Leng Ooi
13.Yi Jing
14.Susen
15.Daron
16.Jin Bang
17.The person who tagged me Mrs. Jung
18.Greffer
19.Snoopy
20.Woodstock

1.How did you meet number 18?
Lol... err... he's my erhu teacher...met him the first day i learnt erhu... XD

2. What will happen if you have not met number 17?
I won't be tagged now... XD

3. What if number 9 and 20 dated?
SY n woodstock ar... err... lol... They'll be gay... XD

4. What if number 5 and 10 dated?
Kar Yee n Cai Yi... err... speechless...

5. Describe number 1.
Best person ever in my life... XD

6. Do you think number 8 is attractive?
Lol... YH ar... err... yea lar... he spent only about 3 days to let 99% of form 6 to get to know about him... XD is he not attractive or what??!!

7. Describe number 7.
Hmn... The girl who always hits me really hard on my arms... *pain*

8. Do you know any family members of 12?
Err... Went to her house before... seen her parents... but not her brothers... XD Her mom can really bake!!!!

9. What languages do number 15 speak?
He ar... cantonese and english lor... and also a little bit of "cacated" Chinese... XD

10. Who is number 9 hanging out with?
Lol... I hope i know... XD o yea... his viola?? XD

11. How old is number 16 this year?
Err... He should be bigger than me by 2 years... 19?? XD

12. Who's number 2 favourite singer?
Err... Singer... I don't know... Musician?? Yanni!!! XD

13. When is the last time you spoke to number 13?
Err... Let's see......................................................................

14. Have you ever dated number 4?
I'm not a gay... Lol...

15. Would you ever date number 19?
Lol... Should i say... NEVER!!! ?? XD

16. Is number 3 single?
Yes he is... hmn... I wonder he's still available?? He quite a nice guy... Girls... Better grab him fast... XD

17. What is number 10 last name?
YI

18. Would you be in a relationship with number 11?
Lol... Miss Q ar... I think she's not available liao lor... XD In the future?? Lol... She's like... Uni grad. liao... XD

19. What is the school of number 13?
She was in CHS as well... Now ar... UTM... XD

20. Where does number 6 stay?
Not telling... XD

21. What is your favourite thing about number 5?
Err... She can be quite caring if she wants to... XD

22. Have you ever seen number 14 naked?
NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh,this is cool...gonna tag some 38 frens to play with:
Dowan tag lar... feel very bad after tagging... XD

Tagged by Ah Tam

Instructions:Remove 1 question from below and add in a personal question, make it a total of 19 questions. Then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. What are your nicknames?
Shawn... PMO: Zuo Hao... XD

2. What is your most favourite thing to do?
Sleep... Table Tennis... MUSIC!!!!!!!!!(Ma life) ... Food(Vegetarian only... XD)

3. What kind of news do you read?
Anything I find interesting...

4. What would you give up in return to eat all you want in the world and not get fat?
Anything nice! but only vegetarian... T_T""

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
if i'm able to eat "tree skins"... lol

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
friendship(including brothers)... and also life

8. What do you feel like doing right now?
going home...

9. If there’s someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
一切随缘走吧。。。XD

10.List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
(i) He's a bit leng zai lo... lol
(ii) He's very serious and willing to do anything when it comes to things he needs or he likes...
(iii) He's really good when comes to theory in kao lui-ing... XD

11.What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
一切随缘走吧。。。

12.What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad?
when he/she does something(morally) very different(180 degrees) from what he/she always hangs in his/her mouth...

13.If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
err...

14.If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick?
contented

15.If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
lazy... haihz

16. If you have/had a partner... or even trying to "pikat" her... have both of you ever looked in each other's eyes?? (this question is VERY IMPORTANT)
I haven't had a gf b4... lol... XD

17.What is the one thing you love about yourself?
emotional enough that i can act out any emotions i want in times of needs... XD

18.What is the type of song you like to listen to(Music Genre)?
好音乐（不管它是什么音乐。。。 不管是什么奏出来的或谁唱出来的。。。 总之能感动到我的音乐就是好音乐。。。）

19. What kind of supernatural powers u think u hav..?
sixth sense... but diss from others punya sixth sense... not saying it here now... don't feel like doing so.. XD

Tag: YH, Boon, Yan Ping, Mrs. Jung, Shu Ying, Qi Xiong, Siu Jeen, Win Zee... XD

Products from ma lao puo n maself... XD

Heyz.... sorry for not posting for such a long time... first... nothing much to write... then... no mood to write as well... just to keep this blog a little bit more alive... let me post this to you guyz... it's my recordings with my erhu... XD just a few songs... and also... don't expect much... it's not really that good... in fact... it's not good at all... XD

Alright... Here're the songs...

1. Colours of the wind
http://www.4shared.com/file/61201493/8b540407/colous_of_the_wind_final2.html

2.Fu Shi Shan Xia
http://www.4shared.com/file/61201243/3a7706f8/Fu_Shi_Shan_Xiafinal2.html

3.Chun Ni
http://www.4shared.com/file/64929711/284ef591/chun_nifinal.html


feel free to download the songs and listen to... just try not to vomit... if not your charis and computers'll get very dirty... XD comments seriously appreciated... XD feel free to say anything about the songs... XD enjoy... XD

PS: By the way... YH, Kar Yee, Leng Jie, Ching Sin... I think you guyz have the songs already... XD

From: Shawn
Zuo Hao

11.33am 29/09/2008

Beatboxing Flute... COOL!!!!! Must introduce... XD

Well.. I've to say sorry first... because i saw siu jeen's blog with the canon in d post... then i thought of this video that i used to introduce to everyone i know... XD i feel like plaguerising... XD sorry to everyone... haha... especially those who i've "copied" ideas from... XD

Well... I guess all of you know about beatboxing... the cool thingy that they use mouth to do some seriously cool tempos and beats... XD well... here's something different... beatboxing using flute... well... it's seriously VERY difficult!!! i'm not going to explain all the science inside to show you how difficult it is... or else i'm going to write a SUPER LONGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG blog again... and i don't want to do that... firstly i don't have much time left and secondly... people are starting to comment about my pots being too long again... XD just know that it's much much much more difficult than the normal beatboxing... XD

Here're the videos... XD :

Mario Brothers Remix(Flute Beatboxing)



Inspector Gadget Remix(Flute Beatboxing)




Well... Here's a challenge to those band members... I DARE you guys to do it... muahahahaha... XD no offense though... XD hope ou enjoy the videos... XD Comments appreciated... XD


From: Shawn 9.17pm Thursday 04 September 2008
Zuo Hao