In Sarawak now...

well... i'm in sarawak now... waiting for ma sis's car to be serviced... too bored... and since they have wireless connections... i'll just try to say what happened just now... XD and yea... obviously... i wasn't happy since yesterday until even now... this moment... haihz... maybe i'm just too tired... not only because of lack of sleep... but too tired for everything that happened... T_T

woke up at 6 o clock... mom was banging my door and yelling... " very late liao lar... faster wake up ar...." and i woke up... lol... as usual... rushed my breakfast... and ma dad to ma mom and i to ktm station... ma dad, ma cousins and ma sis took txi to airport... well... as usual.. what u can expect from the ktm stations in M'sia... LOUSY STUPID services... we reached there... thinking it was still not that late... and relaxed a bit... at least i did... then... the train which was supposed to be arrived at 7.07am didn't arrive... as usual... everytime there'll be a missing train... i wonder if something ate it... lol... only at 7.30 we managed to et up onto a train... Zzz... when we stepped into the train... only then we realised... ARGH!!!!!!!! NO AIR COND!!!!!!!!!!!!! i almost suffocated... i stood there... wihtouht having even an inch to move about... without aircond... packed with people... and i did that for half an hour... when reaching kl sentral... i smeel even worse than ma socks man... ewwww............... and my bag stinks as well... and we went to the LCCT_ KL SENTRAL bus... ma mom bought two tickets... obviously... and suddenly the guy came out from the us and said... mdm... this bus full... can u seat in front ar?? beside the bus driver... my mom... aiya dowan lar... then we went onto the second bus... the empty wan... and my mind told me... o no... we'll have to wait for duno how long liao...zzz... and... just as i expected... i waited for 45 minutes before the bus started... my mom was so pissed off... but she din realsied that it's her own choice for not taking the bus earlier... lol... sometimes human just wont blame themselves... Zzz... we reached the airport at 9.20 am... and then suddenly there was an anonucement... to passengers of flight..........(my flight)... this is the final call... please go to gate.......... for immediate boarding... lol... i was rushing like hell man... luckily i passed my ic to ma dad earlier before we went onto the train... malaysian transport system... so dissapointing.. and guess what. i got the question: you believe that the modern transport is Malaysia's greatest achievement since our independance... for my MUET trial exam... Zzz... feel like... duno what now.. l0l...

on the plane. my dad said... u seat in front.. i sit with ur mom... cz our seats are seperate... and wow... i was sitting beside a maid... and the child beside was noisy like hell man... luckily the flight was only 1.5 hours... nothing much happened... except the pilot... name's Captain Kelvin i think... or Calvin.. who cares... was not a very good pilot... departure was already a little bit overshaky... and wait till landing... wow... the plane landed at the speed of like... i duno... 200km/hr??!! so damn fast!!! suddenly stepping on the brake like stupid like that... until the rubber smell from the tyre also can be smelled in the plane... walao!!! he din turn rounds vefore landing... and suddenly land so fast!!! we were so scared man... like the plane is going to hit something like that... then suddenly got sharp turning... stepped the brakes even harder... and made the turning... only the plane slowed down... and wow... the airplane crew said: " We proundly anounce that we've arrived 15 minutes earlier than scheduled..." wow... i'm SOOOOOOOOOO surprised... ZZZ....

got down of the plane... and went to get ma sis's car... Lol.. it was FULL of dirt... like it went into some swamp like that... lol... and she went back to her house to unpack a little... my mom beh tahan liao... went and washed her car... only then it was a bit more presentable... lol.. then we went for lunch... quite a sucky lunch... zhap fan... maybe i took the wrong dishes... lol... and we bought some bread... and finally here we are... me getting bored to death... Zzz...

that's all for now... i'll try to write about my whole trip of four days... and it'll me 10000 words long essay... imagine... what i wrote just now was only for half a day.. XD hope i'll cheer up soon... and o yea.. those who went for tuition today... remember to teach me what i've missed man... XD thx 1st... XD

From: ZHShawn
3.12 pm... Wednesday... 3rd June 2009...

Random Post...

Too bored... i quarrelled with ma cousins... lol.. n guess what... i din really feel anything... lol.. XD well... sometimes... people just like to talk about other people without looking at themselves... they just know how to criticise people... just liike what they also say always:有口说人没口说自己... without realising themselves doing that as well... how do i know?? simply because i do that myself as well... XD but i realised... and i'm trying very hard to not do that again... lol... XD

it's sunday... and i feel sooooooooooo tired... until i coulnt even make myself do anything... anything at all... and so many things happened in my mom's side of family... one whole whiteboard also cant finish writing ar... haihz... cant help it... big family comes with big problems... haihz... Zzz... what's more... i'm already super lack of sleep... pimples started to grow... and i still have to go to school at 7.30 tommorow and on tuesday.. walao!!! so tired... but what to do... we have to study 3 books in chemistry... 2 of them are 3 inches think n another one 1 inch thick... lol... inorganic... a bit excited.. XD but i hate memorising... that's how i failed to do well in my organic chem and bio... haihz... i hope i wont sleep in lab during tomorrow and tuesday... XD duno whether aunty christie will bring me out kai kai tmr... hope so... or else i'll be death of boredom man... XD

going to Sarawak on Wednesday until Saturday... sacrificing Maths, PA and lower 6 bio for one week... wow... that's A LOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hope i can catch up lar... haihz... but i'm still excited about the trip... because long time i didnt go out with family liao... XD hope i'll enjoy lar... but still have to study bio over there... haihz... cant even rest... bio phy n maths1 coming after hols man... so damn stressed up!!! this is the first ever time in my life that i study until i'm almost crying man... so stressful... haihz... it's the last 5 months... so i'll just try my best to hang in there... XD

such a random post... just to let out a little bit of stress in my heart... so may problems... things always come in a bunch... good or bad... so i hope i can just keep up with my own life... man.. i cant even imagine the stress on my parents man... how can they even hang on like that... wow!!! that's why i always salute them in my heart man!!! XD

alright... bye for now... celebrating father's day tonight... earlier than usual.. since my sis is going back to Sarawak on Wednesday... so we might as well celebrate it when she's still here... XD
2 out of 4 Mortals of mine guessed me out.. the other two almost figured my identity out... lol... nvm... i planned to not hide my identity for such a long time... XD to those who already got my identity figured out... just keep it a secret and i hope we can still write letters to each other like normal... XD

as or the others... good luck in finding who your angels are... XD

From: ZHShawn
6.35pm Sunday 31st May 2009

Kris vs. Adam...

I know i'm so not supposed to do this... but i just cant make myself to study... too tired for anything... haihz... well... it's American Idol Finale results today... and Kris won the game... haihz... although i knew that Kris is going to win the game... but i still seriously hope that Adam'll win!!! haaihz... sienz... since i duno when... the people i support n i like in any competitions always get 2nd place... American Idol... ANTM... Xing Guang... etc etc... haihz... the only... really only time when the person i supported got champion... YOGA LIN!!!!!! XD Love him so much... that day CHS Idol got a person sung yan se... not bad at all man!!! XD hmn... not really that sad really... cz i expected that to come... haihz... well... that's all for now... Lower sixers... i havent forgotten about u guyz... Gambatteh in finding ur angels... dun worry... u still have at least one n a half months left... XD tnr is SNM interview... wonder how many're going to turn up... XD

Goodbye n Good Luck to Everyone i know in Everything... XD

这世上谁没有烦恼呢？？ 不快乐的人有烦恼。。。 快乐的人也有烦恼。。。 有脑的人就会有烦恼。。。不快乐的人不是没有脑。。。而是他们不会用脑去解决烦恼。。。快乐的人是很会用脑去解决烦恼。。。而不是没有烦恼。。。所以我们应该大家一起多用脑去解决我们的烦恼。。。做个开开心心的人吧。。。XD

From: ZHShawn
11.18pm 21 MAY 2009

Should i continue............................

I can already expect answers from most of the people when i post this question... well... i duno... whether i should continue blogging or not... if i continue... i'll be posting a few posts and get bored and stop again... still deciding...

Newayz... it's 1nd day of lower six orientation today... there were 65 of them... getting smaller liao... haihz... i see some familiar faces... and some that i've never seen b4.. though they were from our school... lol... they went into class today... and guess what... i went into L6S(F6 Chem lab) and sit with them... until i TOTALLY forgot about the NSW Science competition... Damn!!! i missed the competition... but i blame no one but myself... but i'm still quite scared the ppl hu tried to find me will very dulan me lar... haha... Sorry to those ppl... XD but i din regret it... at least i got to now how Mr. Mohd. Ali teaches... haha... tmr sure kena from qi xiong, sime n fai wan... lol...

Talk about L6:
L6S: - 14 persons(7boys 7gals)
- Person that i noe liao: Calvin Tan(Ma Standard 1 & 2 classmate) hu's age is actually bigger than mine... haha XD
- Teachers: Chem ( Pn. Wong S.S.), Bio (Pn. See Y.C.), Physics (Pn. Sim C.N.), Maths ( Pn.
Chan Moi), PA ( En. Mohd. Ali), MUET ( Pn. Tan Keat Sim)
- Advices: You guyz should be VERY grateful for getting such great teachers.. ( Except one
or two... XD) Have fun and enjoy your form 6 life... Fill it with everything you have or else it'll be very boring... XD

Other classes: Not sure about anything yet... lol... will update asap... XD

My mortals: (A guy and a girl...) of course i'm not that stupid to post their names here lar... haha... XD lower sixers... give more gifts to ur angels!!!! XD


My personal feelings about my form 6 life: Although i filled it with a lot of stuff... but i still cant really say that i'm very happy with it... in fact... i din really enjoy my f6 life... haihz... i hope this wont happen to anyone else... cz i ne that f6 is VERY FUN!!!!!!! i dun blame anyone else... maybe it's just ma own problem... XD

Alright... that's all for now... BB...
PS: Shortest post until now... XD

From: ZHShawn
12th MAY 2009
21.35.......

It's time!!!

It's time for me to step out of the dark hole... and come out to be ma old self again... wish me luck... XD

do i still know how to appreciate anything??!!

Everytime when someone is very busy with everything when i'm trying to chat with them... the only thing i do is to blame them for not wanting to chat with me... the only thing in my mind is:"why won't they chat with me?? it's not like i'll be taking a very long time or so..." but... i never think of how busy they are... how much do they wish to have some time of mine to do their stuff... all i do is just blame, blame and blame...

All i do is just blaming them for not letting me know them well enough... but i didn't think about how could i get to know them without disturbing them... only after when i looked at their blogs... then i found out how much are they willing to tell me about themselves... and also that i'm just nothing but a selfish and irritating and annoying person... always disturbing them without caring about how they feel... starting to hate myself... can i ever change?? i thought i changed a lot since last time... but then... now only i realised... i haven't changed a bit since then... seriously need time to settle myself down... but how long do i need?? forever?? do i still know myself?? starting to wonder... how well do i know myself...

自找。。。

最近才发现到。。。很多东西都是自找的。。。也许很多人都已经这样认为了吧。。。我也不是不知道。。。只是不敢去面对和接受这个事实。。。身边的人对我也不差。。。却不太懂得去珍惜他们。。。开始越来越讨厌我自己。。。为什么会这个样子。。。为什么总是爱钻牛角尖。。。都不能放开一些。。。是因为累了吗？？还是没东西能够让我有个寄托呢？？每次只会怪别人。。。却不会看看自己做了什么让到他们会这样。。。真的开始越来越讨厌自己了。。。我到底能不能从这一个黑暗有孤独的洞出来呢？？完全不知道。。。唉。。。我。。。还走得下去没有呢？？走不下去也没办法。。。根本就不能再回头了。。。我到底还需要多长的时间啊？？！！！！